Pretty lonely

Everybody probably knows the feeling of coming home after a day of school, a vacation or long day of work. The moment you step in the door you feel safe, warm and confident. And I miss that feeling a lot.
You normally step in the door, put your jacket or coat somewhere and grab yourself a drink and snack and do whatever you want and see when someone is coming home.

Now, I walk up to my room where no one is waiting and I know no one will come in at any time. Put my jacket on something because there's no hanger, take my working clothes off, put something else on and, as always, I sit around my desk in front of my laptop. There I am. Sitting in front of my desk, every single evening. I love the days that I'm off and walk around the city by myself. Sometimes I read a book. But on Fridays and Saturdays it's pretty lonely when the boys are working, everyone in Holland is party'ing and seeing other people, it's the worse. Than I'm feeling alone sometimes and write things like this down.


Red, the colour of my soul

Tears don't move you, they are a pathetic sign of weakness. You are a natural born leader, and power is your ultimate goal. You are headstrong, and your natural aggression and straight forward demeanor helps you reach your goals. You need to be respected more than loved. You have to be right, look smart, and have others approval. Whites will avoid you. Blue souls either annoy you, or become strong allies. Yellow souls will bring you attention. Other red souls may become your rivals.


Wishlist of life

This is a list of things I really want to do or have in my life. It's just wishes

Get myself gifts from Tiffany&Co(now I just buy myself a nice pair of shoes or a bag at the and of a few busy weeks)
Buy a flat in London city
Have my own, succesfull, restaurant

The list continues..

Louis Vuitton Damier Ebene Canvas Bag

Thé bag.

I could just leave it with that, but I'm not. This is a bag I've like wanted for 2 years, never even tought about what it would cost me. Just tought it would be very very expensive.. you should have seen my face when I saw the price. My mounth fell open to like, the ground. It is so much more cheaper than I thought!

Not that €480,- is really cheap, but I expected that it was at least €1000,-.
Now, I'm a really happy kid. :) When I leave this island called the United Kingdom, I'm gonna buy it. Ohhhhh yes, I will. I will love it for the rest of my life, give it to my daughter(if I'll ever have a child.)and she can go shine with it and give it to hers. Can't wait to walk in that LV store and just BUY the thing wich is probably gonna be in like, April ore May of next year, when I'm in Amsterdam with my stepmum..but..I'm gonna buy it, yay, yay, yay. I could write about the bag for like, 2 hours more, but I'm not gonna bother the two people that see this blog with that.



I might not wear my watch the next 4 months, but I'm in love with them.
The only problem is that I only have 2 watches. My one that I got when I gratuated and the one that I got with Christmas last year.

The first is a Guess one, silver with diamonds and the other is brown with sort of a light greany colour.

Problem: they don't match most outfits, and they also don't spice up outfits. I want it to be possible to have a watch with every outfit and for every occation.

On my wishlist are the watches above!
The Marc by Marc Jacobs is going to be mine around Christmas, when I have to buy myself a present. Also a symbol of my half year in the UK.
Harrods sells it so I need to buy it over there in about a 7 weeks!



Coffee table books

There are things in life you need. But there are also the things in life you wánt. Just to have it and take them with you all your life. Things as books. As a child, I was always fascinated by the books of my aunt and uncle in Arnhem(B&M). They had all these open closets full of books. And in all of the books was the date when they bought them, with who, where, why, and if they got it as a gift, they wrote down who's gift it was and when they gave it to them.
My love for books started only 2 years ago, when a friend of mine started to work at a bookstore. She knew what I liked and sold me all these books I still have to read, but some, just because I wanted to have them.

That's how we get to the coffee table. Books you just want to have because you want to have them.
And I've got a little list of them. Books I want to have for fun, because it's pretty or because its fashion.

My list of books I really want to have:
- Influence by Mary-Kate and Ashley Olsen
- Model As Muse by Harold Koda
- The Fashion Book by Phadion Editors
- Coco Chanel by Justine Picardie
- What shall I wear today - Fifi Lapin

All English written books I just NEED to have and definatly gonna buy once. www.bol.com sells all of these books and I could just get them all in one order, but I want to treat myself sometimes, and than..I will order one of these books..

Day 8: Three words you can’t go a day without using

1. Hi
2. Howrya
3. Bye

1. Hi
2. Eten
3. T


Day 7: Four memories you won’t forget.

1. Hugging my brother again after six weeks no see
2. Meeting C. for the first time
3. Playing dolls with Daphne
4. Mom and dad telling us thad dad 'is gonna live somewhere else for a while'


H&M Loves Lanvin

It's only 2 weeks and 5 days 'till we can see what they putted together. Sooooo curious.

Day 5: Six songs that you’re addicted to

1. Ilse DeLange - Next to me
2. Olly Murs - Please don't let me go
3. Krezips karaoke songs
4. Marco Borsato - Dochters
5. The Piano - Yann Tiersen


Love This

Day 4: Seven fears/phobias

1. Dark
2. Walking/biking home when there's no street lights
3. People that follow you
4. Fire
5. Spiders, snakes and frogs.
6. Losing my taste/sight
7. Needles


Day 3: Eight things that annoy you.

1. Being alone
2. My (step)brothers won't ever do what I say
3. Feel like eating some chocolate and not having it.
4. Not having good foot in England
5. That I can't wear nailpolish or heels at work
6. Oversleeping
7. People who don't listen
8. People who talk loud when I can't use it


Great. NOT

Since 3 hours, I have a neighbour, and first, I didn't have one. And now I'm stressing out. Why? Becouse I won't have the shower and toilet for myself anymore and thats a HORRIBLE, HORRIBLE thing. Can you imagine? Someone you do not know, showering in the same shower as you, sitting on the same toilet as you and brushing their teeth in the same sink as you.


Day 2: Nine things you do everyday.

1. Eat
2. Wear (mostly nice) clothes
3. Sleep
4. Tweet
5. Shower
6. Love
7. Text
8. Smile
9. iPhone


Day 1: Ten random facts about yourself.

1. I just love to have good food, like lobster, scallops and other like that
2. I'm one of the guys
3. Like dinnerparty's and going out for dinner
4. Love to shop
5. Living in England at the moment
6. I like shopping
7. Love Ladurée and Starbucks
8. LOVE high heels
9. Sister of my lovely brother Robbert
10. Like to lay in bed all day when possible

It's on.

10 Day Challenge.

Day 1: Ten random facts about yourself.

Day 2: Nine things you do everyday.

Day 3: Eight things that annoy you.

Day 4: Seven fears/phobias.

Day 5: Six songs that you’re addicted to.

Day 6: Five things you can’t live without.

Day 7: Four memories you won’t forget.

Day 8: Three words you can’t go a day without using.

Day 9: Two things you wish you could do.

Day 10: One person you can trust



Finally! Next saturday I will meat my sweet love again. 3'rd time now and still don't know which is the best. Ladurée, I will meet you again, lover.